Holding back

Uh oh.

Something ain't right.
Something ain’t right.

I just realized I’ve been holding back. Not just a little, but a lot. In all aspects of life. No wonder I feel shit (more than I need to). No wonder I bite my nails so much. No wonder it’s hard to get out of bed quite often and my vitality is low. No wonder my breath gets caught so much with gunk in my windpipe – The almost unnoticeable overeating due to anxiousness, fears, and doubts would do it to you (ALONG WITH OTHER THINGS)… see Louise L. Hay’s book  “You can heal your life” for that.

Click here for some info about phlegm in the throat .

Sometimes we make life more difficult than it needs to be.

KISS – Keep It Simple Stupid. I learned this in college. Works for design and life it seems.

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OME TIMES we let fear control us. And it seems like what I was doing. I didn’t notice because I was fitting in like normal- that is usually a warning sign for me. I was NOT being myself. I was NOT living here and now in the present.  I was not truly LOVING.

Maybe I still am NOT. But I’m making more changes in the right direction.

Susan Jeffers in her book “Feel the fear and do it anyway” wrote that life can be like a plane ride. You are usually headed to a certain known destination and you usually arrive there but in between you are veering off course in little (or large) increments for most of the time. This seems to be one of them for me.

We are all different and express our life energy differently. Even each person can express themselves with huge variations from day to day. But in general I know what works for me and what doesn’t. I work best with vibrancy and life and light and vitality… messy, childlike, innocent, silly, comic, energetic vitality.

What works for you? And not just the made up socially accepted you. I am talking about the real, soul you.

It can be terribly scary to show our true selves. Indoctrination, guilt, fear, shame, judgements, and lack of self acceptance will see to that… but this precious life is worth it if possible, surely!? (this is me talking from a very privileged position of course but you get my drift right?)

There is an old Irish Gaelic saying used as a blessing on departure. It goes “Seachain tú féin”. In english it might translate as “Avoid your self”. In other words… we can be our own worst enemy, so just get out of your own way and let life get on with it.

This is my blessing for you.

Allowing the fun to flow through
Allowing the fun to flow through
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